My First Blog Post

Postpartum Depression

As of November 15, 2016, my life changed forever. On this day, I gave birth to a healthy and beautiful baby girl. I was very excited, yet, scared to bring my first born into the world. Although I’ve encountered many joys of parenthood, I had no had no idea how hard it would be. Especially adjusting to life with a baby. Everything changes,. Everything about you changes. Some good changes. Some not so great.

Being on maternity leave, I had a lot of time to bond with and learn my baby. Life was great. That is, until about 3 weeks postpartum. Having to heal from birthing my baby, I was given the instruction to take it easy for the next six weeks. I gave birth during the Winter season so my doctor recommended that I stay in the house as much as possible to avoid infection/getting sick. I followed my doctors orders which ultimately led to what is commonly known as postpartum depression or “baby blues”.

Depression came over me quicker than I knew it. I have always been healthy and never once dealt with depression. I would cry watching certain Christmas commercials, having conversations, even just looking at my new bundle of joy would make me cry. Weird right? I knew that something was wrong but could not pin point what it was. After doing some research and talking with my doctor, I learned that I was facing postpartum depression. Me? I’ve always been spunky and bubbly. Me with depression? Yes. All of the emotions of having a new little human solely depending on me and being extra careful because I wanted to make sure I was perfect mom. I didn’t want to fail as a mother. Also, being confined to the house for six weeks struck depression. I literally felt as if I was a zombie because I had the same routine everyday. I wanted to get a fresh breath of air.

I knew that depression wasn’t a part of my character. I wanted out of it and I did just that. Everyday I began to put on clothes and jewelry and fix my hair. When you look good you feel good right? Right. I did things that helped me take my mind off of being stuck in the house and just looking like a tired mom. It’s not easy battling depression but it can be done. I kicked depressions butt & so can you!